| red curtains. |
[Nov. 2nd, 2009|12:11 am] |
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my life has been sucking a lot lately, and i can't seem to step forward without messing up even more.
i seem to drag my feet and make more mistakes.
i wish i could stay stagnant somewhere. anywhere, for a while.
i've been feeling unhappy for too long. |
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[Sep. 9th, 2009|11:21 pm] |
give me a break gary puckett-
i just uploaded seven albums that my mom owns of the classic 60s songs and of all 90 songs the first one to come up on the shuffle is "young girl by gary puckett" 3minutes and 17seconds of torture. why universe do you do things like this to me? :((((((((
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classic 60* collection 1968 the hits that rocked a generation :_______: fuck |
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[Jun. 30th, 2009|05:04 am] |
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my neighbor owns a rooster. it's crowing, it has been for the past hour. i havent slept, but then again i got up at around 11am today, and i went to the gym for three hous so im super hyped up. ummmmm Animal planet is my favorite channel i think.
Untamed and uncut, Growing Up..., Whale Wars, Weid, True & Freaky, Animal Cops Detroit/ Houston etc i love it. :D
Sunday morning i got a call back from Mildred, or "Milly" as she'd want to be called and i think i got the job I applied for at Kaplan. Im happy YAY!
I also have $1200 credit for Emirates Airlines, i wanna see if they fly to Turkey, I may stay there for a while at the end of this summer, and meet up with my dad's friend's daughter who is from dubai, she goes to school in turkey.
wah wah wah i'm not sleepy. i have $14 in my wallet, and my car was sold today! possibly looking for another one this wednesday YAY |
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[Jun. 23rd, 2009|03:46 am] |
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i love.
i have a cast on my left arm, because my boyfriend beat me this weekend. it's a sign that he loves me!
ahahahaha, joking! that fool wouldnt hurt a fly~ i do have a cast though and it's been pretty warm here so it is uncomfortable and i wanted to start teaching myself how to crochet this week but obviously thats out of the question until this comes off!
(i fell on my elbow this weekend, so thats why ive got a cast) no fun! |
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[Jun. 5th, 2009|02:08 am] |
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it's nice to find support in the strangest of places. :) |
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[Jun. 4th, 2009|01:18 am] |
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today- tiananmen square- 20 years :( |
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[Jun. 3rd, 2009|02:05 am] |
i need help
i need to talk to someone
i need a release. this isnt working and i dont know what to do. i have so many questions. |
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[May. 15th, 2009|02:18 am] |
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i had the worst luck yesterday.
didnt feel as prepared for my final exam
got lost and circled most of downtown due to all of the detours
didnt have 40 cents to finish paying my parking at the central library
got on the carpool lane by accident and got scared TO DEATH as there were two sherriffs in front of me and OMG i cried on the way home, i didnt get caught and it was a TOTAL accident but omggggg today was a bad day.
:((((((((((((((( |
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| week from hell |
[May. 7th, 2009|01:59 am] |
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i'm glad this week is almost over, as is school.
i need to start looking for a summer internship! i want to go abroad, but i don't know where exactly. most places probably have closed admissions this late into the year for summer.
so i'm spending the week with the boyfriend after school is out. is it vain of me to have been working out a lot to impress him (as we wont be wearing much ...to catch up on our lives et al?) i mean i already lost the weight i'd gained over thanksgiving/christmas/new years and i AM training for a marathon, but really i have to admit that this week alone with him --NO SCHOOL! NO ERRANDS TO RUN! NO TUTORING TO DO! -- was my motivation to go to the gym since march. (i hate being so short that 11 lbs look like 50!)
meh, whatever. he'll love me whichever way (i know he does), and i really want to be in shape for a half-triathalon i'm doing 3 and a half weeks.
school work is a bore, ive pretty much checked out of school mentally. im ready for this semester to be over NOW. and this week needs to be done with too. too much crap going on, and it just needs to really END.
alright so im pretty much speaking in code. i'm just going to listen to my audible and try to sleep. i have two exams later today that i think im pretty prepared for, but i don't want to risk being late or something.
oh also, i changed my layout earlier this week while bored during a lecture i'd already read up on. wendy is cute isn't she? ^___^ i like these colors too. |
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[May. 2nd, 2009|11:30 am] |
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im tired and no one seems to listen. really i am tired. i dont want to try anymore. |
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[May. 1st, 2009|10:28 pm] |
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this week has been crap. nothing ever seems to go my way no matter how hard i try. the hell with planning ahead. i might as well not even try.
i think im going to sleep in this month, wake me up when it's september please. |
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[Apr. 29th, 2009|10:54 pm] |
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so lately i feel as if im fading into the walls. no one has time for me. :\
i'm not ok. this sucks. |
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[Apr. 28th, 2009|10:21 pm] |
my first crush in which i ever revealed my feelings to was when i was fourteen. my school had a forum where one could post topics of all school related rumors and i revealed my feeling online to a kid i would sit across from in the hall every morning for nearly three years. anyway he obviously was flattered and we talked online but never in person... as i was ugly and not his type. i introduced him to my friend...where she would eventually develop feelings for said kid. umm he never confronted me in person and for that i am grateful. he dated this pretty korean girl a year younger than us and when she broke up with him and hurt his heart she was horrified when he told her he didnt feel hurt because he intended on not letting emotions get the best of him... and i cant help but thinl of this ridiculous asinine scenario to encompass how i want to feel lately. |
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| life stuff |
[Apr. 28th, 2009|09:56 pm] |
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im really beginning to dislike the lack of control i have over certain things in my life right now.
i keep asking myself: what's the point? (more so than usual and it is really beginning to reflect in my character) |
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[Apr. 28th, 2009|01:55 am] |
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i need a job. i miss hanging out with friends, i'm tired of feeling alone here. i've bailed on them far too much because im broke.
school is crap lately, too.
i feel like crap. |
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| what i miss hawaii # 739 |
[Mar. 8th, 2009|01:18 am] |
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daylight savings time isnt observed.
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had a pretty good day. i'll post about it later. I'm tired! |
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[Mar. 6th, 2009|07:08 pm] |
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WHAT THE FUCK, i went to the grocery store and i saw a security guard crack a poor old man in the face for no reason.
drug abusing motherfuckers |
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[Mar. 5th, 2009|12:40 am] |
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i dont know the definition of basic words.
it's the pessimist in me. |
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[Feb. 28th, 2009|09:13 pm] |
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i'm feeling really empty, and i don't know what it is that i need to fill this void. |
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